At the time, I was certain that I was playing my hand well, and now I’m even more certain that I was wrong. I should have gambled more when I needed to instead of just waiting for her to act. I never had control of the situation. I was confident she would call, and it left me in that familiar awkward situation all over again. Déja vù. I never had her, and yet, it felt like I lost her all over again.